Wednesday, April 23, 2014

A Single Answer Does Not Exist

When I was assigned the task of interviewing my mentor teacher on her methods of planning for instruction, I thought, that it would be easy. I thought that I would sit down with my teacher, ask a few questions, get a straight answer and that would be that. As it turns out, the questions didn’t seem to be as easy to answer as I had originally thought. My teacher seemed confused and unclear on how to answer what I had been inquiring. I asked about her process, what guides she follows and what methods she uses including specific details she may consider when planning. Although she tried her best to answer, I still didn’t feel satisfied. The process of planning for instruction has been one of my greatest conundrums when it comes to learning how to be a teacher. As I have progressed through all my classes thus far everything has made sense. I know to teach from my heart and care about my students, I’m learning that it is important to incorporate all types of cultures into my program, I understand the importance of differentiating instruction and scaffolding, however when it comes to knowing what and how to teach my vision goes fuzzy. Suddenly, it’s all very unclear to me.
Again and again my mentor teacher pointed out how she uses the standards and the curriculum to base her lesson plans off of, but again and again I failed to get the sense that I had a concrete definition of what I would need to do in my future career. At this point in time, it seems that I am missing a piece of the puzzle and I might not ever find it until I reach my student teaching or first actual teaching job. I am beginning to believe learning this process is something that must come from experience rather than paper, pencils, books and questions. Although these are all rungs in the latter to my success, there is nothing quite like simply being thrown into the real thing to make you learn quick and adapt to a new norm.
With all that being said, I began to venture outside of just my mentor teacher’s suggestions in the hopes of finding more answers to these resounding questions. I talked to my mom, dug for her input and pleaded for an outline or overview on what to do. When even her advice didn’t suffice I talked with the art teacher at the same school my mentor teacher works. This is where I found my answer.
My interview with her was practically pleading, begging for an end to my search. From here on out I stopped “playing the role as teacher,” I stopped trying to present myself as a prepared, intelligent young women who was ready to finally become a teacher. And lastly, I skipped all the propriety. For that moment, I remembered I was only a student and that above all, right then, that was also my job. I said to her, “but how do I know what to do,” (a final attempt at gaining an answer with continuity). She said, “There is no single way to answer that question.” I was floored. All this time I had been searching for something that does not exist. She explained that it’s a different process for every person and every school and most importantly, every group of students.
Specifically, she emphasized the importance of keeping behavior in mind when planning. She discussed a term called the “responsive classroom,” which she said is beginning to be a large focus for many schools. From what she discussed with me, the term means that students are learning how to be responsible for themselves. This means that students should be able to figure out how to work through problems on their own and in groups rather than the teacher having to instruct them all the time. She pointed to her own class as an example. Their ability to clean up and work on their projects together, to understand transitions and when it was important to listen for instruction without having to be reminded was all part of this idea.
Later, she even showed me her lesson book. She explained that you can pull information and resources from ANYWHERE. When sitting down to write her own, she often spreads all her materials out in front of her. She begins with the standards and goals and works from there to develop a plan, pulling whatever she needs as her ideas flow. This method reminded me so much of my own style. When studying or trying to plan something out I often find myself crisscross apple sauce in the middle of my bed with papers and books scattered around me. I tend to hop along, following my train of thought rather than a more methodical strategy. For me it’s what makes the most sense, especially since I am very forgetful. It gives me a sense that my resources are right at my fingertips whenever I may suddenly need them. When I have an idea I feel more comfortable to run with it no matter what I may have been previously working on for fear that I may lose that train of thought and never get it back.  With that being said, I have a feeling that my best planning is going to come from my classroom floor. Given my learning style and need to spread out and jump around, I may find that doing this on my classroom floor after or before school might be a great strategy. Not to mention having a big dry erase board behind me could be another thing I could use to jot down ideas or make charts on as I go along, I fully intend on utilizing my space as needed.

Overall however, I am beginning to realize that all the answers and things I need to know are not necessarily going to be presented to me in the years that I am an undergraduate student. Just like my mentor teacher said to her students today, “don’t forget, I am a student too, just like you.” As teachers, it is more important to realize that we are also students, always adapting and always learning new skills rather than fretting over the notion that you need to know all about teaching before you get the chance to actually be one. We learn from experience and from here on in, I must take comfort in the fact that no one expects anyone to be the perfect teacher now (or later) but rather, to be the even better student.